I am 11 weeks following a MC last time at 5+5 with my first pregnancy.
I have dealt with all the worry of this one largely by pretending it is not happening. I seem to have subconsciously decided that if I don't accept I am pg or think about it as a process with a baby at the end, it won't hurt so much when it goes wrong. And by "when" I mean "when". I feel like I'm just waiting for the pain and bleeding to start. There is no rational reason for this. I know MC is very common, particularly with first pregnancies. I have also had two scans with this pg and both have been normal (at 5+6 and 8+6). But I can't shake the feeling that, for some reason, I don't deserve this to end well so it won't.
For the first few weeks this didn't bother me and it seemed a sensible way of protecting myself emotionally. Now I am beginning to worry myself. I reach 12 weeks next week and will need to tell some people (DH and I have kept both pg to ourselves so we don't have to deal with any sad happenings publicly) and I can't imagine telling anyone I'm "pregnant", or dealing with them enthuse about the baby because I don't feel like that.
I was wondering whether any of you had felt like this and, if so, when you started to let yourself accept that the pg might work and there might be a baby one day 
...? Thoughts or comments appreciated. Thanks xx