It's suddenly hit me. I had an awful labour with dc1 (which I'm not really thinking/worrying about at the moment as I figure there's not much I can do) but was also really quite unwell for a good while afterwards. On top of which my DH had to go away for a couple of weeks when dc1 was two weeks old and I was still poorly. My mother stayed with us but that was a disaster and I said I would never do it again. Now expecting dc2 in a month or so and have only just realised DH is likely to have to go away again for a couple of weeks when this one is newborn again. And I'll have a determined toddler to deal with! I don't think I can deal with a deranged mother as well but don't really have anyone else to ask for support. I'm hoping it will all just be better this time around but I'm scared. Can't really believe this is the first time I've thought beyond my due date! Anyone else feeling the same?