I don't know where to start with this so please bear with me.
I am two weeks late for my period and am terrified I'm pregnant again. I took a test this morning (clear blue digital one) and got that bloody sodding error message despite following the instructions to the letter. I can't go get another one because I have to wait in all day so it will have to wait until tomorrow now.
The reason I'm so terrified is because I have three DCs already, the youngest is 6 months old and I developed pre-eclampsia 24 hours after giving birth. Since then I've continued to suffer with high bp and am taking bendroflumethiazide to keep it under control. I can't take these pills whilst pg so don't know what would happen with that and i'm ridiculously scared of getting pre-eclampsia again. The thought of spending most of the pregnancy in the hospital away from my children terrifies me and would be a logistical nighmare in terms of childcare/DHs work etc.
OTOH, I always dreamt of a big family and would love another baby. I just accepted that it wouldn't happen after DC3 because of the above. Please hold my hand and, if you don't mind, share your experiences of high BP in pregnancy/pre-eclampsia in subsequent pregnancies.
BTW, have namechanged for this because I know a lot of people on here and aren't ready to share this with others yet. TIA