I can't find the freak out room thread...

[ALovelyBunchOfCoconuts]

And I'm freaking out. Someone hit me with a wet fish.

Have had 2 previous mcs have PCOS and bicornuate uterus, have 3yo DD and am now 20 weeks with DC2. I know the risk of mc is pretty low but I am so so nervous for my scan tomorrow. I'm convinced something is wrong.

I know there is a baby in there, I just can't see it coming out and being mine or coming home. I'm losing the plot. I don't know how to calm down.

It is completely irrational, because I have a doppler and I hear the heartbeat whenever I want. I can feel kicks now so I know it's in there. I'm just in complete denial about it all. Nobody apart from parents know. Have told nobody. I don't like going out in case I see someone I know. Walking with my head down in case someone sees me. Refuse to even think about buying anything yet.

Someone tell me after tomorrow I will be sane? Am I the only one who thinks like this?

We're over on the Conception board......... !

Link!

Thanks harrased, have just found it. Dur!

you poor thing, I am 24 weeks tomorrow and am feeling exactly the same. I am now enormous so people talk to me all the time about the baby and as I am freaking out I hate talking about it so I just brush them off.

Spent the night before last in tears because I thought something had gone wrong, went to the GP so I could hear the heart beat. I am also having counselling to help me through.

I too have a 3YO DD and have had 2 MCs.

I just want it to be September so badly and to be holding a live baby in my arms.

I hope your scan goes well. x

KT - thanks for your reply. I've been in tears all morning one way or another. Will be fetching DD from platschool with my shade on for sure.

I hate it when people talk about it. Family are excited and DD loves kissing my bellly but I just brush it off and change the subject.

Glad I'm not the only one. I hate feeling like this. Nobody understands. They all say "Oh it'll be fine Don't know why you're worried" I hate it and I want to just hide in bed for the next four months.

I was terrified before my 20w scan, then I've had a scare at 22w so I'm just looking at my pg in small steps - I want to get to 24w so I can breath out a bit, then 28w, then 32 etc

I have lots from dd1 so don't need to buy too much but I'm expecting twin girls so need a new pushchair/pram. We're ordering it at 24w but the shop will keep it for us and have a policy of full refund if anything were to happen. It's earlier than I would have liked but am already feeling huge and exhausted so need to do it while I'm still active and twins are likely to be early.

I really just want to be walking out of the hospital with two healthy babies in their car seats - I have the image in my head, but it seems so far off right now!

Congratulations on your pregnancy!

Coconunts I was exactly the same, and still am at 24 weeks to some extent. The freakout room is fab and the best support you could have. If you want another thread, there is the Totallys Grads thread here for pg after mc, everyone will understand what you're going through :)