Am I weird?

[StickThemWithThePointyEnd]

After I mc'd at 8 weeks last year in april I felt this terrible bump envy every time I saw someone who was pregnant. The emotions ran pretty high, probably not surprising.

Strangely enough, I have started feeling like that again, these last few weeks. This time I really don't understand it. I'm 40+6, and I've had a pretty horrible pregnancy compared to DC1. It's been worrying, terrible sickness, chronic sinusitis, salmonella, SPD and slow labour. I actually don't think I would want to be pregnant any time again soon.
Nevertheless, when a friend announced she was pregnant last week, I felt a little stab of something, and wasn't sure. Then another friend announced her pregnancy, and it was the same. Today, I found out another 2 friends are pregnant, one told me face to face and I had to really force myself to just grin and congratulate her, and look excited.
I don't know why I don't.
I AM bloody pregnant myself, and there is no way I would want to be at the beginning of another pregnancy. I am happy for them, but somehow I can't shake this feeling of .

what the hell is wrong with me??

Maybe as this pregnancy was not fun for you you have subconciously decided not to have any more so think that you won't be at that newely pregnant excited stage again? You never know what will happen, I may be on completley the wrong track but good luck with this baby and think how envious the newley pregnant are of your brand new baby which seems like a lifetime away for them ( I know i feel a bit impatient and jelous when I see a new mum) xxx

Ivy you poor thing, I know you're exhausted from this pg, and this can't be helping your mood or thoughts. I haven't been at your stage of pg, but I've had an awful few days of feeling miserable for no reason, when I have everything to be happy about. All I have been able to put it down to is perhaps my hormones. I wonder if this could be a contributing factor? I don't mean to belittle your feelings, I really do sympathise. I bet when you get your new arrival you'll be so caught up in how scrummy it is you won't be feeling any of this ((hugs))) I hope you get someone more helpful and constructive along soon, I just didn't want to read and run

I would add that I'm [cenvy] of how far along you are :)

I think it's really normal to feel as you do.

When I was getting towards the end of my pregnancy with DD2 I found myself feeling jealous of other pregnant women. Now I'm pregnant with DD3 (28 weeks) and I'm already mourning the end of this pregnancy - even though I have a whole trimester yet to go! I know that this will be my last one, so that has something to do with it.

You sound as though you've had a really hard pregnancy but, even so, getting towards the end marks the end of one stage and the beginning of another. It's great to get to that next stage and, of course, lots of women will be feeling jealous of you, but it still marks the end of a stage and there's a kind of loss there.

FWIW, when you scratch the surface with a lot of women they have very complex feelings around pregnancy, even if they've had children themselves and all's gone well. I think that jealousy is more common than any of us would like to admit and, for some women (myself included), there's always that twinge on finding out that someone you know is pregnant.

There's nothing wrong with you and, speaking for myself, there's nothing to be done about it. It's just one of those weird things that we do. Give yourself a break and just accept that those feelings are there.

Good luck, hope all goes well over the next few weeks.