pregnant again after miscarriage...early days

[aMuminwaiting]

Well as the title suggests I only found out I'm pregnant week ago. I should be 5-6 weeks now but I have very long cycles so it's hard to say. I lost my first baby at nearly 22 weeks last year and then my second at 11 weeks 6 months later.

I'm thrilled to be pregnant again but every trip to the loo is frightening. Even if it's a few spots here and there I do NOT want to see any blood this time. I'm on progesterone pesseries and aspirin this time.

I thought I'd be totally paranoid this time and want to stay under the duvet for as long as the pregnancy lasted. I don't know if it's the sun or just that I feel more positive than last time, but I've been out walking every day, meeting friends (but only told one the news) and playing frisbee. I feel a lot more active than my other pregnancies where I needed to sleep all the time. Then of course a bit of crazy kicks in because I think...am I supposed to feel this good? Why don't I feel more ill or tired?

I've looked for a thread to find some other women who need support and someone to go mad with but those threads all seem to be quite a few years old now. Is there anyone out there who wants to join me?

Hello, i'm 38 weeks pg after 2 MCs and it has been really tough, and I only started relaxing after about 32 weeks, but the time does pass eventually! Try aiming for small goals rather than thinking about the whole 40 weeks. Good luck and I hope this is your sticky one Xx

Hello!

I'm a bit further along than you now (37 weeks tomorrow) but I know how you feel having suffered miscarriage myself. Those trips to the loo are terrifying but the fear wore off for me eventually once I reached a stage where baby could technically survive outside of me! Long road though and I did have a few little bleeds along the way.

I think it's a great sign that you feel active and different to your other pregnancies. I felt very different in the early days of this one compared to my last. Wasn't tired at all, no morning sickness, no bad skin... I think making the most of the weather and walking will only help you with blood supply etc, and healthy mum has to be much better than couch potato mum.

I'm probably not what you're after here, but I wanted to say stay positive, you WILL get there! Big hugs.

I'm so sorry to hear of your losses. There's a good freak out room on the conception pages that I couldn't have done without, if you still want to join a thread

I was in a similar situation and am now 37 weeks and can't wait for the baby to be born. It does happen, but will take time. All I can suggest is to take each day as it comes and feel good at the end of each day that that is one more day pregnant. To be honest when I was early days like you, I measured it between trips to the loo, then I got to days and only quite recently to weeks. Too hard to imagine it all in one go, just a little at a time... And do lots of nice things to take your mind off it!! Good luck x

amuminwaiting - as per orange's post, go to the conception section, and there is a thread called "the freak out room for the newly updiffed after MC part 5". The ladies on there are my lifeline - we're a pretty fab group of equally petrified, mentalling ladies. I am sure they will all welcome you with open arms.