I'm so very sorry...

[cameli]

...for this self obsessed post but i'm hoping to get it all off my chest so it will make me feel better.

First thing is I KNOW i am so very lucky to be pregnant but this is my second pregnancy & both times have been absolutley shit.

Almost 15 years ago my son was born at 31+2 via emcs after i had been hospitalised and put on complete bed rest at 20 weeks with complete placenta previa and many heavy bleeds. He was in NICU for only 25 days. This was obviously not a great pregnancy for me. I also found out at this time that i have a bicornuate uterus.

Now i am 34+4 and bled for the first 14 weeks and i was told it was a threatened miscarraige everytime i bled. The NHS have been excellent - i've been under consultant led care & had numerous scans. I've been admitted to the antenatal ward a couple of times for various things including contractions at 29 weeks :( I really didn't want another prem baby.

Just after this i mentioned to the consultant that i was constantly itching so she ordered some blood tests - you guessed - i was diagnosed with obstetric cholestasis and have to take drugs. The itching is horrid, I have to have weekly blood tests & monitoring, monthly scans for IUGR and take tablets everyday. I will also be induced around 37 weeks. Don't get me wrong, i know this is good because i want a healthy baby but it is also a PITA.

I was also diagnosed with SPD at 30 weeks and I'm having weekly physio for it but its not really working. I have a twisted pelvis anyway & I used to go to an osteopath every 6 weeks for manipulation and i REALLY need this now but no-one will do it. I can't walk for longer than 10 mins. Rolling over is agony.

So now for the final thing. I have been having numb/achey/stiff fingers for a few weeks which is driving me crazy. Its worse when i have been sleeping which is not much at the moment as the itching keeps me awake & then I have to pee every hour too! I mentioned it to the physio because it is getting so painful & she says i have fecking Carpel Tunnel Syndrome!

Can i possibly get anything else before i deliver in approx 3 weeks?! I do hope not because i am so fed up now.

I feel as if pregnancy is really not for me - some people do it really well & some don't - I obviously dont.

Sorry for the rant.

x

jesus wept, that sounds truly awful! Hang in there, you're on the home stretch.

Any Heartburn?

Swollen ankles?

Well, that's OK then.

Seriously, poor you, you sound like you're having an absolutely miserable time. Nothing I can do but wish you all the best, count the days, it'll be over soon, you'll have a lovely little one and it will all be worth it.

Blimey you poor thing that sounds utterly miserable. I hope nothing else developes over next few weeks and that you have as a relaxing birth as poss, you never know it may be a couple of pushes and out in 20 min - it can happen! sounds like you deserve some luck. I hope you have a wonderful child at the end of it and maybe just stick with 2 DC, sending positive vibes your way x

Thanks everyone.

I forgot to mention the piles which I've never had before.....

Trying to think positive today :)

No need to apologise, I dare say you belong at the front of the Queue for those Allowed to Moan.

You have every right to rant, you haven't had the easiest of pregnancies. Hope that is the end and the next thing you get is your baby in 3 weeks.

Oh my God how utterly crap. Sounds like you could write a really depressing manual after your experiences. Had a friend who had similar joke problem levels, it was like some sort of black comedy by the end of pg.

Personally I would sulk like hell and make sure that I got every possible cheer up/treat going from the people who loved me. On the bright side - thank goodness baby two has stayed inside until now, which will give him/her every possible chance of being well. (not that I'm saying you should somehow feel 'lucky' - you haven't been)

I hope you've got plenty of support lined up post baby so you get some sort of chance to recover mentally and physically after such a shitty experience. I also hope your baby turns out to be a happy natured, super-healthy, gorgeous looking Einstein of a child who never criticises his mother - sounds like you deserve it.

carmeli you have every right to rant and moan so vent as much as you like. I hope you get the care and attention you need.

Re carpal thingy I got diagnosed with early stages a couple of years ago and my wrist splints have been a god send I only wear them at night and it vastly reduced the numbness, pains and tingles. I can open jars again!! Have they given you any or suggested you use them? There are some fab ones on eBay in black too. You can also ask to be referred for the nerve tests to confirm the diagnosis. See the MN docs Q&A on RSI very helpful too.

Hope things improve for you and be pushy if in pain push for help with your GP or MW etc. X

That all sounds awful. You certainly don't need to apologise for the self indulgent post. Pregnancy is bad enough when it is easy let alone when you have all that going on.

Hope that the last 3 weeks aren't too unkind to you. x