hi ladies, i'm sorry it's taken me so long to update you....had quite a lot to take in today and think about.
we went back for the scan today. baby was still wriggling around and wouldn't get into the 'ideal' position for the nuchal fold to be measured. on the scan it was like you were looking at it on top of it's head downwards (iykwim!). anyhow despite this the consultant could still see a dark mass (the fluid) around the back of its neck - and it hadn't gone down at all :( she was quite direct and said that it would be very unlikely that this baby would be born without some type of chromosomal abnormality as the measurement was so high.
i think i'd gone expecting the worst, so i wasn't overly surprised, but it still hit me really hard - especially now we've seen our little baby wriggling around on screen, seemingly without a care in the world. she said they looked for other markers too (clenched fists which apparently indication one trisomy type) and also checked all the limbs, organs etc. the fluid is still in the one place so hasn't spread which is a good sign, and everything else looked good (but it's still far too early to be able to tell that for sure).
oh, and they had the results of my bloods back from the lab - which gave me an overall risk factor of 1:5 for Downs syndrome - pretty darn high :(
i go back for an appointment in 2 weeks time and a possible amniocentesis. i'm still not 100% sure about that part, but i think in this situation steve and i NEED to know what we are possibly facing. if this were our first child then there would be no questions at all and we would just leave everything and let what will be happen. but because we have 2 young children already we need to consider how this will affect them too.
they are also arranging a cardioscan in Oxford - this wil do as it says - check for any heart problems. some which can be linked directly to a trisomy, and some that are completely unrelated, but high risk in their own way.
she also said there is a chance that this pg may still miscarry :cry:
so once again we are playing a waiting game. i thought i was ok earlier, but tonight i am in bits....i just want to protect my baby and make everything ok and i can't :(
and to top it all off, i found out today that i have an interview TOMORROW afternoon for my new possible job at work - that timing couldn't be more terrible. the last thing i feel like doing at the moment is researching and preparing for an hour long interview :?
so there you have it - in limbo again for another couple of weeks. i'm so sorry this post wasn't more optimistic, but i think i'm just in s sad place right now and i hope i can be more positive again soon.
thanks for reading and caring xxxxxxxx