Hello - this is a post I hoped I wouldn't have to write. I thought I would be able to 'somehow' get through my (first) pregnancy and manange the hormonal roller coaster that it is.
A bit of background - six years ago I was diagnosed with severe PMDD (rather like PMS but worse). I was put on a low dose of antidepressant which helped tremendously to alleviate the symptoms and helped me to live a normal life (read, much improved relationship with husband). Prior to pregnany, I know my husband was really concerned about the effects of me coming off medication and unfortunately, all his worst fears have been proven to be correct. It appears preganancy hormones don't 'protect' you from imbalances you may have experienced prior to conceiving, in fact (and certainly in my case) they exacerbate them.
Speaking to my Obgyn, she has prescribed a low dose anti-depressant. I'm at 16+6 and everything I have read indicates the overall risks of taking the medication are low, partiucarly during the first half of pregnancy. But, I am completely torn. Risks are risks are risks and how could I live with myself if what I take now negatively affects our baby? On the other hand, my marriage (after four months of extreme symptoms) is taking a bashing and I am not sure how much more my husband can take. He is as supportive as he can be, but he has reached breaking point. It is just so very sad. This is 'supposed to be' a joyous time, and yet we fight all the time, I'm not sleeping and I can't see how things will get better. I'm under absoutely no pressure from my husband to take any medication, but I just don't know what to do.
Has anyone else had any experience of this? It's not easy to talk about, but I am really at my wits end. All I am hoping for is a healthy baby and reasonably happy husband. I am sure that is all anyone of us wish for. Any advice from those who might have experienced anything similar would be much appreciated. Thank you for listening.