How can I perk myself up enough to enjoy my short maternity leave??

[RememberToPlaywiththeKids]

I'm 38 weeks and for some reason I'm feeling completely flat as a pancake / down in the dumps. I have no idea where it's come from but I anticipated feeling buzzy with excitement at having 3 days a week where i can do what I like while the 2 kids are in nursery. I have a list as long as my arm of things i've been looking forward to doing and i just can't be arsed and am now feeling bad for not making the most of my time.

I am infuriating myself by sitting on MN (which I can do all evening anyway) instead of using the time to do stuff I can't otherwise do. I have done some of the things but got zero enjoyment out of them, which is most unlike me!

Someone help me....!!

Maybe you just need to rest????

Don't put so much pressure on yourself, this is time for you to relax, spend a couple of days resting, sleeping and doing nothing and I bet you'll find you then have enough energy to do all the stuff you wanted. With DD2 I had great plans to do loads with DD1 and tons of cleaning and prepping but I ended up sleeping more often than not, this time is supposed to be your rest before the baby comes along, take advantage of it!

I have welcomed having time to go shopping and seeing friends! Feel a bit guilty that dd is at nursery and I should be resting/clearing my 'list' but then I eat some cake and feel better!

but everything on my list is fun, not cleaning or preparing, so really i should be enjoying them!

I'm also feeling a bit disengaged and it's making the kids play up dreadfully and they're driving me absolutely mad :(