Seeing MW in half an hour and feeling crap

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I don't think I'm very good at being pregnant, physically or emotionally. Last time round was absolutely horrific. This time round I've been OK really yet nevertheless on the ceiling with anxiety fearing every worst-case scenario possible. And I was a fully consenting participant in the decision to conceive DC2 and really truely want a DC2, so I can hardly claim victimhood.

But I just feel crap. I'm scared that if I tell the MW how physically ill I'm feeling that she'll send me to A&E. I'm scared that if I tell her how stressed I am she'll panic. And I have to leave for work at 12, so I can't fall apart.

Anyone out there to hold my hand?

I'm rubbish at the pregnant thing too. A few times thinking about how big I will get, what I will have to deal with at birth (even though elective c) and keeping my sugars down (cue massive guilt over Freddo bar eaten earlier)

Some days it's finea dn I am happy about it, others I am scared and worried about it all.

But - it's only for 9 months. You can do it. Think of people who have gone through terrible thngs for longer, you will come oput the other side with a gorgeous child!

But if you are really feeling ill and it's not psychosematic (sp?) you need to tell your MW - that's what she's there for!

Hi, I'm rubbish too and just told the midwife exactly how I was feeling. It depends on your midwife I'm sure but mine was amazing and I was so glad I told her everything. She got me sorted with support and counselling and never once suggested I couldn't cope - pregnancy is a big thing for your body and you can't always do everything by yourself. Would some time off work help? I'd say bite the bullet and tell her...you might be very glad you did. Good luck. x

Thanks for replying. Sorry I'm not the only one feeling like this.

Unfortunately, it is physical as well... I've got pre-existing medical problems which could could seriously complications but inevitably cause massive panic amongst professionals. I just can't face having to take on their anxieties as well as my own. I can't provide the reassurance they need. And of course I shouldn't have to.

Work-wise... yes, I probably should be off. But I can't not go in today. I'd be massively massively letting a colleague down and she's lovely and I wouldn't eant to do it to her.

Thanks though for your kind words.

Appointment now. Eeeeeek.

hope it went ok, it is ok to fall apart occasionally and sometimes once you have it all feels better. general ((hugs))

Thanks. It went OK and I told her enough but not TMI about how I'm feeling, and when I told her how little sleep I've been getting (ie nil) she seemed unworried about the physical symptoms. Now off to work and running late. Ah well...