22 weeks and want it all to stop

[NYC40]

I don't know whether it's the hormonal rollercoaster, but I really want to stop being pregnant and get my old life back. I look ahead to the baby being here with such fear. I feel more down than up. I've felt really tired the past few days, even though I've been massively active until now, exercising 4-5 a week and generally getting loads done. When I feel that tired, I start to think how it will be when he's here, and ten that triggers a load of negative thoughts - ending up with what the fuck am I doing? I wasn't exactly the broody type to start with.

Am I alone in these feelings? And can anyone reassure me that they'll pass and i might feel happy with what I've done?

Ha! I know that feeling! I don't have it all the time but it comes in waves. Having waited quite a while and this being my first pregnancy at 35 I am slightly scared at the prospect of being a mother. I have been independent and done my own thing for so long and now that will never be the case again .

Tiredness can do funny things to you though and two days ago I spent the evening ranting to my DH "I want it out and I want my body back" as my ribs were killing me and I can't eat or sleep normally.

No one goes into it knowing what to expect and there may be bits that are worse than you thought, but I am certain that lots of bits will be amazing (please God!).

Rest assured you are not alone though. I wish more women were honest about their feelings. You are just adjusting at the moment.

I have felt like that too, and honeslty, I think it can be normal, but perhaps it is worth speaking to your GP about antenatal depression?

IM exausted, running around after my DD who is 3 and doing my degree, I do question if I want this little baby to come and upset all my plans. Ive puton weight etc, I was using the "baby" as a thing to resnt, when in reality, the baby is the most innocent thing in all this, and I love it dearly allready.

i understand what you feel, when i was pregnant with my little boy, 2 this year througout all my pregnancy i was down and upset tired and exhausted i loved him loads but sometimes thought omg what the hell, i was 17 and saw all my friends doing thingsd i wanted to be doing, plus my relationship was under alot of stress which didnt help. and now ive just found out im pregnant again and absoloutly terrified, had a bad birth with lil boy dont wana go through that again plus scared of telling parents, i know i'll grow use to it but at the moment im just like WHY? WHY?

Hi, im pregnant with my 3rd baby.

With my 2nd pregnancy (my DD) i had this it was horrible i got to the point where i didnt even want to buy anything, which was so odd as she was planned and i so wanted a little as i already had a son.

When she was born and they put her on me i immediatley asked my husband to take her off, it was horrible but i later (about 6months) relaised i had antenatal and postnatal deppression, it was horrible and when i look back i want to cry.

Pregnant with my 3rd now and im citalopram and it has been great, i still get anxious and have panicky moments (i had them terribly with my DD) it's not even half as bad and i am so excited about this baby.

Sorry bit if a ramble, so really just wanted to say dont go through it on your own if you need a little help dont be scared, or as the other ladies said it's a scarey time i dont think i know anyone that hasnt thought atleast once (crap what have i done)

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