I feel like I am a crap mum to my dd (5) already and I'm worried I'll be even worse with 2. She has just had a massive strop because I coloured in the "wrong" part of a picture in her colouring book. She hit me very hard with one of the pencils and went off bawling to her bedroom.
I apologised (probably not very well as I was angry at her hitting) and I shouted
explained that hitting was not on and she needed to say sorry to me for that. Of course she refused and said she never wanted to speak to me again etc etc. So I said we wouldn't be able to go swimming on Monday if she wasn't able to say sorry, cue her saying she would kill herself if we didn't go. I have never heard her say anything like that and it upset me.
I realise I probably dealt with the whole thing wrong because I was angry and also it started me off crying (bloody hormones). Now i'm sat here feeling useless and stupid for not coping with a 5 yr old tantrum and wondering how the hell i'll cope with two.
Please tell me it's my bloody hormones, I feel shit.