Breastfeeding and sad about boob change

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I wasn’t sure where best to put this, so hopefully this is most sensible place.

I had a really difficult start to breastfeeding - big weight loss, re-admission, tongue tie, milk delay (EMCS, post partum haemorrhage). Ended up triple feeding for weeks which was horrid. Eventually was lucky to he able to exclusively breastfeed until around 6 months, combi feed since then and I don’t take that for granted at all.

DS is now 8 months and still breastfed. Around 5.5 months he started rejecting the right side and only feeding from the left. I tried for a few weeks to keep the supply up on the right by pumping and offering it regularly, but it didn’t work and I kept getting painful and engorged. In the end I just let it go and the right side has basically resumed an almost pre-pregnancy appearance.

what’s bothering me is that my left side, having done all the bloody work for the last three months, now looks drastically different to the right.

I feel so lopsided, and my left boob just feels so big :( it feels like I’ve got it on loan from an equipment library.

I’ve always had a naturally small chest, which sort of suits me and my style. I was glad that they were small because I didn’t have to think of them much.

i know it might come across as vain, but im really scared they’re going to be stuck this way when I finish feeding, and I’ll be drastically lopsided with one overly large boob that doesn’t feel like it belongs to me, forever.

does anyone have any reassuring stories to make me chill out about this?

Nope, don't panic. My boobs were like boulders when I was feeding, and although I fed off both sides both of my babies preferred my right boob. I also only used one boob per feed so that one got more use. They are now both perfectly even shrivelled empty bags 😂 and back to a 30A/B.

It will go back when you fully stop, I fed from one side 3 times (could never get a good latch or supply on my right side and my babies basically rejected it after a few weeks) and I was lopsided until I stopped (2-3 years) then it gradually shrunk back to match the other one every time!

It 100% goes back to normal. my bff had this.

Thank you for sharing folks! I feel reassured! X

I'm in the same boat at 15 months pp! I'm about to stop feeding because I'm almost 20 weeks pregnant and I want a break before I have another baby attached to me 24/7. Dd definitely has had a favourite boob though...my left is significantly bigger lol.

Good to hear from some other posters that they'll likely even out again.

Short term, a chicken fillet in a decent bra will help balance you up when you need to dress up. I felt so much better after buying a new bra for work, even if it will only fit for 2 months and I have to strip off to pump