Hi,
As the title says i’m 1 year PP now and i’m really struggling. I’m a single mother and I half regret my choice almost daily. Love my son to bits but I fear this was a huge mistake. I really noticed I was struggling a few months in but I kept seeing others say it’ll pass, when baby gets older it’ll be easier etc. Here I am now 1 year PP and I feel like i’m struggling just as much if not more.
It feels like I cannot get a moments peace. I can’t leave the room (kitchen and sitting room share the same door) otherwise he cries and comes into the kitchen, then wants to be picked up and cries if he’s not & baby wearing hurts my back.Even when we’re in the same room, plays for a bit but then wants attention, which is normal but I feel so burnt out I just want to be left alone for a moment.
I don’t even get respite while he’s asleep, we co sleep, which I definitely regret & i’ve cuddled him to sleep mostly since he was born (also regretting that). I’m so jealous of the mothers who can just put baby in the crib and go continue their evening. He wakes up and looks for me throughout the night at different points and it’s so unpredictable. He won’t sleep in the crib, he cries and I feel bad but maybe I need to try sleep training?
I think if he would just sleep independently I could recharge and manage things better& be a better mother. He deserves the best but i’m just beyond exhausted. I’ve thought about adoption but I think I shouldn’t have waited so long for that and honestly I don’t want him gone I love him i’m just struggling.
If you made it this far, thank you. Does it really get better? i’m open to tips