Hi all, looking for some comfort/support in quite an emotionally charged time. Iām 6 weeks postpartum with baby 2. First baby was a traumatic emergency c-section whilst being fully dilated (but wasnāt checked so they didnāt know until theatre). This time I was determined on VBac (idiot). Anyway, baby was having head compressed, was back to back, came out sideways with forceps. Episiotomy and 3a tear. Anyway, thought I was healing really well! Was feeling great, have been taking toddler to soft play, getting out etc. Went to 6 week physio (NHS) due to above. Was informed I had prolapsed but couldnāt tell me how badly/degree/what had gone. Told me to go to GP to be referred to gynae. Obviously horrific to be in limbo. Since then, Iāve realised I have like an air bubble feeling pretty much constantly. 11th May- I had taken a pic of my bits because I had possibly some afterbirth still inside - so I actually have a pic to compare to. I now have a much larger bulge and down there looks so much worse. Iām finding this all encompassing- horror stories online, talk of hysterectomy, I feel like š© and feel so sad. Definitely my mental health has plummeted since being told. Decided to book a private gynae app. She said rectocele minor, go back in 6 months. But she didnāt examine me standing up, which I was told was really important. Also the bulge has definitely got bigger since seeing her and Iām freaking out itās going to drop down even further. Am I even allowed to walk?! Hoping to get an appointment with a private pelvic PT over this weekend (I am booked with her next week, but have asked if she would mind checking wtf is going on down there beforehand as I am losing my mind). Any success stories? Positive ones only please! Iāve already seen on the horrific ones. Feel like I canāt enjoy by baby or my lovely toddler as itās on my mind non stop. Also feel like maybe Iāve made it worse before knowing picking up toddler etc. keep getting mixed opinions on this. Gynae said keep picking up toddler and live as normal but donāt want to make things worse. Feel like everything I do right now is wrong. Also exclusively breast feeding right now which Iāve read can also make things worse so now questioning all of my choices.