Hi all,
I hope you and your LOs are all well.
I am a first time mum to a 20 month old boy.
I have PND and will be starting therapy finally 3rd June.
The wait was ridiculous but I'm glad it's nearly here soon.
I struggle a lot with dissociation and I sort if lise touch with reality and double guess myself so much. Honestly I wouldn't wish this on anyone.
Today I met up with a friend in nando's. My son is so active now so wont sit and watch something while eating on the high chair he just wriggled out stands up and wants to get down.
We decided to leave after a while to take him park as we ate while he napped.
While I was tidying the stuff away on table he was exploring the blinds by the window and I thought it's just blinds so I let him. It probably was a few seconds i didnt look and suddenly I see him instead of licking the window he was holding this long string. So I panicked and took it away as soon as I saw him holding it. But it had this part to it just near the end of the string where there was this button class thing you know the types that you find on some childrens sunhats where you push the clasp and pull to tighten or loosen. This thing was just an inch above the end of the string so I am sitting here panicking ever since what if he swallowed something like that what if there was a similar one at the end of the string because the end of the string there was nothing there and I'm panicking also thinking what if he swallowed these tiny metal hoop things attached to the blinds too.
I am spiralling.
I sound crazy I know especially as this happened like 6 hours ago but I'm still worrying thinking what if he swallowed it and its inside him in his lungs or stuck inside his body. I'm mentally struggling so dont sound with it. I'm so sorry. But please advice