Feel like I have PPD/Anxiety

[Mamtobe2024]

Hi,

Since my baby was around 3 months old I started to get a feeling of doom and gloom start to creep in every so often and I never thought anything of it. However now at nearly 5 months post partum I find my self so down in the dumps and it's like I see no joy in the day at all. I wake up and I'm anxious and already so down in the dumps then it gets progressively worse as the days go by. I feel irritated for no reason what so ever and usually I'm a very calm person. I'm starting to think I do have PPD/Anxiety. I feel so down and helpless.

I have next to no help from my partner I do everything, take care of the baby, take care of him and the house etc and I'm honestly so burnt out especially because of the way I'm already feeling and being burnt out is really not helping me at all.

I feel like I'm not the best mam at all at the minute because I'm so down and depressed, I still act happy for my baby and still play with him etc but I can't help but feel riddled with guilt because I feel lost as to why I feel so down when he's all I've ever wanted.

Sorry for the rant, I'm just looking for some advice 😔 x

Firstly, get yourself to the GP. I had to go a few weeks ago and I won't lie, it was scary but knowing I'm on a list to receive CBT (after initial consultation) is helping already. You will be closer to the top of the list because you're PP.

You're not a terrible mum and you've identified that it's not normal for you which is a good first step.

Also, your partner needs to step up, especially if you're feeling like this. Have you spoken to him about it?

Sending you hugs. It is really difficult, but you will be doing a great job (because you're worrying about it for a start) and are 100% deserving of any help you need. X

Thankyou for responding!

I am definitely going to speak to my GP about it as it is getting worse I'm just scared to admit I need help I guess. I'm worried if they think I'm not capable of looking after him etc.

I've spoken to my partner and he just still doesn't listen, I was on the verge of walking away from our relationship a couple weeks ago as I'm sick of him not helping me out and expecting me to run around like a slave. He also knows I'm struggling and isn't bothered in the slightest and that upsets me, I'm there for him all the time and he just doesn't care when it's me that needs help x

They won't think you can't look after him, but you will need to be honest about things at with your partner so they can see you feel abandoned and alone even in your own home.

Focus on you and baby first and then when you are ready you need to think about if your relationship is right for you. You deserve better than having to look after a baby and a man child. Especially when you're postpartum, so already vulnerable and not 100% yourself.

It has really taken a toll on me I'm not the person I know 😔 I used to be such a happy and positive person and I took pride in my appearance etc and now I couldn't care less what I look like, I hate who I am and just feel numb.

I've contacted my GP for an appointment so I can ask about therapy etc as I do want to try and avoid medication if I can. Thankyou for responding! x

@BedZeppelin I just wish he was more caring about my feelings he usually is but because he's got a lot going on with his family etc he doesn't seem phased about me. I've spoken to my GP they are making an appointment for me to speak to them.

I just don't want to feel like this anymore I feel like this is me forever now 😔

This will not be you forever, but it might feel like that for now.

Please update and let us know how your appointment goes. If you want to chat about anything then you can always PM me :)

Wishing you the best of luck a s hope you get the support you need x

Hey,

Just thought I'd update you. I went and seen a GP yesterday and I feel like he just completely dismissed how I was feeling 😔 he just said it's normal to feel this way apparently, aslong as I've got no thoughts of harming myself or the baby he's not too concerned. He recommend I get myself out for "walks" and try my best to improve my mood. Which I've already tried all those things myself.

I'm speaking with another GP next week as I feel like I've been fobbed off he wants a very pleasant GP x