Normal or PND?

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Third baby so feel like I should know the answer to this... but... baby is 3 months old, and I've had a bad few nights of sleep. EBF so all on me. DH helps by taking baby in the morning, but I feel broken today. Exhausted, emotional, a little like I would quite happily run out the door and never come back. Doesn't help obviously that the older kids are off school so have those to look after too.

Is this normal?! I'm feeling it very intensely today. Yesterday I was tired but didn't have this feeling of doom.

I had postpartum anxiety 6 years ago but this feels different. Not sure if everything will feel better if I get a decent chunk of sleep or if this is me now

I think wait and see if the feeling stays for a couple of weeks. I knew I had PND when I went on an amazing holiday and felt no joy at all. I had help with my child from my sister and child, I wasn't tired, he was 1.5 and I had stopped bfing. It wasn't a difficult time but I was still so unhappy and had been for quite a while but it took a lovely experience, which I would usually have loved so much, to show me where I was at. I wasn't suicidal or highly anxious, I just had zero joy or feelings of any sort.

Do you have parents who could take the older kids while you sleep a bit today?

Sorry, I had help from my sister and my husband (and only one kid!)