I had my much-wanted second DC a couple of weeks ago. I'm finding myself getting increasingly stressed and wishing the time away, then feeling guilty about it.
My first DC had colic so I am constantly on watch for the signs. I had PND and PNA and I find myself worrying about developing them again so much that I fear it's becoming a self fulfilling prophecy!
So far, DC2 has been relatively easy but I am starting to dread the nights. I'm not the best at coping with sleep deprivation and it's the unpredictability that gets me down. Even though I have been getting out and about every day, I get lonely during the day and want to make the most of time with my DH in the evenings, but then feel I should be going to bed early to get some unbroken hours in.
DC1 was acting out a lot when we first brought DC2 home, though that has settled a bit now thankfully. I have to do nursery drop off every morning and walk the dog, which is actually helpful in giving my days some structure, but I also feel a ground down.
Is there anything I can do to stop over thinking everything? I knew I wouldn't enjoy the newborn phase but I still feel like I'm on the cusp of messing it up and will need to go on medication again etc. Any advice would be very much appreciated.