Postpartum depression/anxiety/rage

[Rach7291]

I can't cope anymore. Me and my partner tried for 5 years for our miracle girl. I love her more than anything but i hate being a mum. I am so angry all the time, i get irritated by everything and just cry constantly. I want to enjoy this time with her but she's 5 months old and its just getting worse.
I dread going to sleep every night, knowing i have to do it all again in the morning. I have no friends or family really. I just have my partner and mum. I never thought this would happen and i feel so guilty for feeling this way. I know i will look back on this time and feel so sad that I'm not able to enjoy it. I don't know what to do. I'm currently having counselling but i just want to feel better.

Im so sorry you’re feeling like this, but you are not alone. Have you seen a doctor and got a prescription for an anti depressant or anti anxiety medication? I would recommend Sertraline, it was a game changer for me as I suffer from PMDD. The first two weeks are tough and then I felt like a completely different person. Maybe worth speaking to a doctor about as I know one medication does not work for everyone.

Agree with glitter, please see your gp about getting medication. I also take sertraline and it’s been a game changer

Does it make you feel numb? I've taken stuff before and hated that I didnt feel any emotions

How does it make you feel? When i've been on stuff before it just makes me feel numb and like i'm just floating

No it doesn’t make me feel numb, it made me feel what I imagined ‘normal’ to feel like for the first time in my life. Definitely worth speaking to your doctor about.

No definitely not numb, as Glitter says just makes you feel normal and sort of switches off the intrusive thoughts. Works really well when combined with therapy because it lets you put the therapy into practice better

I might speak to them and see. I just want to enjoy my baby, makes me so sad!