Baby blues - scared

[Reblond24]

Hi all

I am 6 days post Partum and my mood is an all time low . I feel so overwhelmed and sad all of the time and guilty I am feeling like this.
I have had the most beautiful son and I was so excited for 9 months , my partner is so supportive as is my family and friends but the gravity of bringing a baby home, the change of everything and not knowing what my new life will look like is terrifying me.
I have a history of anxiety and depression
I stayed on my medication during pregnancy and my dr said likely this is postpartum blues that will pass and is different than anxiety / depression as related to hormones dropping off

does anyone who else have experience with this who are already on ssri and experiencing baby blues ?

I am so scared they won’t pass :(

I am crying over nothing and up and down all the time

thanks ladies x

Are you still under the MWs @Reblond24? If so, I'd ring them now and tell them how you're struggling with how you're feeling

@Reblond24 I’ve just came across your thread and wanted to ask how you are doing now ?

baby blues are bloody awful, I felt horrendous after having my first, I used to cry at the same time every day for weeks, I was so conflicted between feeling blessed and happy yet alone, afraid and In a dark place. Luckily they did pass but I was left with low mood for probs the first 15 months.

it’s a rough ride, especially with your first, hormones are crazy powerful and I hope you are now doing much better x

Thankfully i am completely fine now it totally passed and I am loving being a mum and my baby , it was absolutely shocking though when I had it x

@Reblond24 I’m so glad to hear that !! It really is awful when you’re in the thick of it, wish I would have seen your post at the time to offer some support. Glad you are enjoying motherhood, congratulations x

I LOVE having babies (pregnant with 3rd) but I am so anxious when it comes to postpartum because of everything you described. I have had bad depression and anxiety in the past / still kind of do & it's been a hard one to tackle in previous pregnancies. Something I did was document how I was feeling like a personal diary so I can look back and realise it's not forever. I also wanted to be alone with just my baby but I would recommend having people you are comfortable with to help you. It's such a lonely phase mentally but get all the help you can get and try and maybe socialise with other mums with newborns

I'm like this but with anxiety, how did you manage to get over it .. I too take antidepressants and did during pregnancy but feeling like I need to up them.. in running on anxious energy all the time and I just want to enjoy this beautiful time I am a second time mum

Have you spoken to your GP?

just time until my hormones settled , it was only the first two weeks after birth so deeemed baby blues but i don’t know when you had your baby , so if it has been longer than 1 month I would say speak to your Gp and see csn they tweak your medication dose for a period of time until you feel better ! I also continued speaking to a therapist I had previously seen who was a huge help , all I know is either way this will 1000% get better whether it be time if hormonal or speaking to your gp , also I listened to just you wait podcast on newborn trenches have a listen it was really helpful xxx

I only had her 10 days ago but anxiety is stopping me enjoy motherhood..I had an ectopic pregnancy last year and after that procedure with having it removed etc I remember feeling exactly the same so maybe your right with the hormones, I think I'm still going to ask my gp tomorrow maybe ask for cbt again just don't want them to think I can't cope etc I can I want to just enjoy this time but it's worrying about things I can't control and one thing after another xxx

I felt the exact same it is still so so early for you no harm chatting to gp but don’t be too hard on yourself , the first few weeks are so tough for most and am I’d of emotions good and bad x