Hi all,
need to word this correctly so that it makes sense so bare with!
i am currently 34 and have a 5 month DS. When I got pregnant I was working in a job I really enjoyed, taking my training in the gym seriously, which again I really enjoyed. Me and DP are financially stable and could afford to go on nice holidays etc.
I need to stress that I really love being a Mum to my DS and I absolutely adore him. However more recently I am starting to miss my old life. I wish I could have him as part of that life if that makes sense rather I feel like I have a ‘new life’ where the things that were important to me previously I now don’t have time for.
due to the nature of my job I made the decision I wouldn’t go back as it often involved 12-13 hour days. My DP runs his own business and although I earned good money it’s not needed to sustain the household. I felt that returning to my old job would be a selfish decision rather than in the interests of my family. However I really miss it and miss having something that tests me in a different way to being a Mum. I have started looking for part time roles with less responsibility so that I can work again.
also for obvious reasons I can’t dedicate myself to fitness like I did previously. I am back at the gym but because I am not doing it to the level I was previously I am also finding it unfulfilling.
I am out the house most days at baby related groups, swimming lessons etc and I’ve met some lovely new friends but I just don’t feel enthused.
im just interested to hear from others if they have experienced this feeling of almost having a ‘new life’ and does it pass and you start to feel like you again?