Hi everyone,
My elderly grandmother was holding my son today and entering the kitchen while I was just coming out of the bathroom.
She carried him before like 4 to 5 times and was fine, I think this time he has become a bit heavier since he is having solids now. He is 9 months old.
So, as I was just coming out and parking the slippers of the bathroom next to the door I was smiling at my mum who was singing to my son from the hallway as my grandma was bringing him over while carrying him.
As she was doing that, the stupid gold colour mental thingy which separates one room to another, her sandal caught it and she nearly slipped!!!! and my son was on her too!!!
My reflex didn't just try protect my son but her too, talk about mums intuition!! So basically, I just took feet out of my slippers and was walking out of bathroom and justtt, just about got both my arms out and pretty much brought my hands in together as if to make my gramdma and son hug, so like my left hand pushed against grandma's back and my right hand against my son's chest raising my grandma's body upwards.
I don't even know if I explained that well. I asked my grandma if she is okay and she was more worried about my little bubba bless her. And I reassured her he is fine and laughing and singing. After that, she was okay and we made sure she is well and not in pain.
Now, I am in a very anxious state because I am so so scared that what if my pressure against my son's chest was hard and what if that hurt his chest? He was fine, no crying, he resumed singing etc. But my head is not in the right state. I have PND and I find it difficult to sometimes distinguish reality from perception. Like, in my head if I think rational, I just know it was not hard at all, it was so light the way I held my grandma and son to hold them while bring in a state of shock myself. But then there is that anxiety ridden part of me that is worrying.
Do you think my son is okay and will be fine??