I had baby no 3 12 weeks ago, delivered by c-section at 34 weeks after pre-eclampsia diagnosed at 32 weeks.
Dd is doing amazingly well - growing well, alert, starting to smile, feeds and sleeps well. But I’m struggling. We were ttc for six years before having our twins through donor embryos - I had a textbook pregnancy, delivered 37 weeks, the first year was full on but we loved being parents. Back at work I was in a really good place - moving upwards, feeling really fulfilled. So we decided to go for number 3 before it was too late (so have three under three). The whole pregnancy I had this gut feeling that something was going to go wrong, but all indicators were fine. Until I went into MAU with a headache and came out a month later with a premie.
since being admitted, it feels like my world has come crashing down. I’m really grateful for how well baby is doing, but keep reading terrifying statistics on health risks after preeclampsia, and am convinced I’m now at high risk of dying young (or younger than I otherwise would). I’ve always been careful about my health and now I feel like I’ve jeopardised it all.
i’ve spoken with the gp and health visitor and am waiting for some counselling. I’ve been offered some anti-depressants too but am a bit reluctant to start them.
I’m not sure what I’m looking for on here, just wanted to get things out.