Hi, looking for similar experiences, solidarity or for someone to tell me I’m being ridiculous!
For context, My baby is currently 19 weeks, I would say I am coping pretty well. I have support from my Mum and aunt who live close by so when my partner is at work they will often take DS for a walk so I can go the gym, catch up on sleep etc. I am going to lots of activities with DS and have made some new friends which has been good for me as I have struggled with friendships in the past.
so here is the problem…. Since having DS I just feel like I don’t care about my partner. Before having him I doted on him and couldn’t imagine life without him, but now I just feel apathetic towards him. I keep thinking how much easier life would be if me and DS lived in a smaller house on our own and I only had to think about me and him and didn’t have another person to consider. I feel terrible even writing this but I can’t even explain how much my feelings have changed towards him. Did anyone else experience this? All I see if loved up coupled with their new babies or women who say their partner did annoy them for the first few weeks but not to the extremes I am feeling. I feel very confused as part of me wants to leave to avoid DS having to experience a painful breakup when he’s older but the other part of me says I’m being ridiculous and selfish.