Dear mumsnetters
I am a first time mum. I have a history of depression due to which I was referred to perinatal care during pregnancy and after birth I believe PND which isn't diagnosed but I have been referred to counselling. Birth was a fast labour so 3 hours 43 mins total from water breaking at home to baby on chest in hospital coupled by hazy memory due to being on gas and air and also I genuinely believe that the midwife stuck her hand up my uterus while she was saying 'I'm checking for clots' when trying to deliver my placenta. I had to be on gas and air for this. This was worse than giving birth because gas and it was taken off me during pushing stage my brain blocked everything I guess. I had a birth debrief but they said that no that was deffo not the case and said that she would have just put fingers in there but it maybe felt like that because I just birthed a baby and everything is still wobble inside. I take her word for it atleast for my own sanity. Anyway, I just realised that I missed my son's 8bweek vaccine and also mine and his 6 week check. I thought I was going to have a letter sent my post or a text. I know I'm very silly to have assumed so. I feel so guilty and scared now what will happen. He will turn 10 weeks soon so I feel so guilty that I have missed it and what am I going to do now as his 12 week one is coming up too. Please can you advise me on this. Thank you in advance x