Hi,
I gave birth to my baby a week ago. He's our first and is very much planned and wanted, and I am absolutely over the moon with him. He's beautiful.
I know that the baby blues are a thing, but I'm so worried that I have them worse than you would normally expect. I go for long stretches feeling fine, but then suddenly feel so overwhelmed by the permanence of it all, missing the freedom of our old lives, and anxious about whether I am a good enough mother or not and whether my baby is okay.
It seems to get worse in the evening, when the sun starts setting, and doesn't really alleviate until it is light again in the morning. My husband has been amazing, he is so good with our baby and just seems to find it all so natural. He has been really supportive and encouraging of me too, and is taking care of us both.
To make matters worse, at the 3 day midwife visit they found he had dropped too much birth weight so we had to go into hospital. To get him back on track, we are doing a combination of expression and formula feeding. I'm gutted because I wanted to exclusively breastfeed. I've sought out some help because baby has put on weight but he won't breastfeed anymore, won't even latch and just cries and screams if I try. This is making me feel worse - I feel guilty, sad, worried...
I know this is a long post but I just wanted to see if anyone else had felt like this, if anyone has any suggestions of how I can feel better or if anyone can reassure/confirm that this is or isn't normal baby blues.