I am a first time mum to a wonderful 6 month old. I had a traumatic birth which I've been told has contributed to me developing PTSD and generalised anxiety. I've tried to avoid watching the news of all the babies and children in a war zone and being separated from their families but it's also all over social media (have now deleted my app)
I have this unshakeable anxiety that I might get separated from my daughter. I know it won't happen, we're in London in the UK and I've lived here my entire life. But I see things like Keir starmar saying it's ok that water is being withheld. And all I can think about is the children and babies. And I'm so heartbroken and at the same time grateful for living in a country where we don't have these worries. But at the same time anxious for the world my daughter will grow up in (our background is Indian Muslim). And maybe it's my anxiety but I feel like the UK is headed in a less friendly direction for certain minorities.
I spoke to my husband about it who said I have nothing to worry about but I don't know why I can't shake the feeling. Last night my baby woke up crying and she saw me next to her and that's all it took for her to soothe back to sleep and I burst out crying thinking just across the sea there are babies that can't do that.
I know it's my anxiety making me feel so triggered. But I feel like I want to superglue my baby to me and I know that isn't normal.