I have been with my partner since we were at school for 9 years and we decided to have a baby together. We had an amazing relationship, very open communication and knew how to support each other very well.
During the last year a lot has gone on, we moved to a new house, my partner lost his dad and we have just had a newborn.
Up until the day of her arrival everything was going so well, me and my partner were so excited to meet our new baby and were very much happy.
However, the day after DD's arrival things went downhill and for the first week of DD's life I took care of her completely alone as my partner had a breakdown. He couldn't be around either of us, he was exhausted even though sleeping all day and had panic attacks.
He has since been to the doctors to get antidepressants and had a counselling session. However, things are still very difficult and he is still struggling.
I am finding it incredibly hard not to feel sorry for myself. I had to give up breastfeeding as I was just too exhausted to care for DD by myself after a week of solely caring for a newborn and not sleeping at all so my mum had to step in with some of the feeds. We had worked so hard to make sure everything was perfect for her arrival and now I feel like that has been robbed from me as he can't pull himself together. I understand it's a mental health issue and he isn't choosing to be like this, I just feel so alone and upset that this isn't at all the way we planned it. I also now feel a million miles away from my partner.
Guess I just wanted to know if anyone else has experienced this and how we can get through this really difficult time?