My DS is one at the end of the month and for the past few weeks, maybe even months.. I’ve started to gradually not feel like myself. I feel teary, low, I don’t enjoy my days off with DS (I work 3 days a week). I thought I would love my days off with him but the reality has been far from it. I feel so lonely on those days and I’ve had to deal with a lot of illness, teething etc on my own. I have very little family support and the friends that I do have have their own stuff going on.. marriage issues, don’t have kids yet etc.
I never seem to be able to chat to anyone at baby groups because my DS is a livewire and constantly on the move so chatting to anyone for more than 10 seconds is impossible! I do have time away from DS and I have a very supportive DH whom I am very grateful for.
i had a very long and traumatic birth and am wondering whether I have fully processed that yet. I feel like it took a good few weeks for me to bond with DS.
Not sure where I’m going with this post but is it possible to have PND this late on? Am I just going through a rough patch? I guess I just wanted to write down how I’m feeling! X