Struggling 2 weeks postpartum.

[eryn123]

Hi guys,
I’m 23 years old and I have just had my first baby 2 weeks ago. My pregnancy was difficult I had a cervical stitch put in due to a short cervix and was diagnosed with gestational diabetes, in saying that i miss being pregnant so much i felt so connected to my daughter. I also had to get induced which led to me having a c section which broke my heart because I always imagined myself having a natural labour. I got home day 3 and straight away i had this overwhelming feeling of being homesick, and missing my old life. I’ve had a lot change in the matter of a month, i was living at with my parents in the same home for 20 years, and just last month i moved into a completely different home with my partner ( his so supportive and amazing ) I just wasn’t expecting to feel like this. I just want to go home. i love my daughter but i thought the feeling would be more intense. i feel so foggy through the day and i do have glimpses of a night of happiness. i just miss feeling normal and like myself. i feel like i’ve made a mistake, will i feel like this forever? i feel like i’m drowning. what if i never love being a mum?? my sister said she felt similar for a fair few weeks after her first. I was so excited for this time for so many months and i’ve never felt more sad.

This is so normal OP! I've heard it called the baby blues. It will get better, however if you're still feeling like this in a couple of weeks you should mention it to your health visitor.

It’s the baby blues. I also think that most people exaggerate the feeling of love happening straight away with baby. Sometimes it’s immediate, sometimes it’s days or even months. There’s no need to put a timeline on feelings. But no, you won’t feel like this forever, and yes, you might have these thoughts again in the future. Its completely normal.

give yourself a mental hug and a break. It’s overwhelming for the first 6 weeks. When you’re hormones start to rebalance you will feel better.

also maybe spend time with your family. Sounds like you need them right now.

send hugs

Could your partner move with you into your parents for a month? The first few months with your first baby can be really hard for a lot of people (me included), and to have moved away from familiar family surroundings just before birth is an added challenge that you don't really need right now.

Hugs - it will definitely get better, probably very soon xxx

I felt exactly the same op xx
it’s shit, I was 25 when I had dd so not far off your age and kept thinking wtf have I done! I cried every night and felt so low, I really mourned my old life and who I was before. Unfortunately many women experience this - your hormones are all over the place, you’re running off minimal sleep and a baby is such a huge shock to the system! As prepared as you think you are, you’re not. Please let people in real life know how you’re feeling. Surround yourself with people, try and get fresh air every day and make sure you’re eating properly and stay hydrated. You will start to feel better soon. If you don’t, please reach out to your health visitor or gp.