Can someone help me get my head straight please

[Mamabear04]

I'm 10 months PP and I just feel like I've fallen into a bit of a hole. I just really hate my body even though I fit 98% of pre pregnancy clothes, just feel a bit redundant (I'm not sure if it's just because being a mum to a baby and a toddler is relentless, I also love it at the same time). I just have no confidence anymore, inside or out. I'm still recovering from the birth 10 months on after a bad third degree tear and mild prolapse. I know I should be kind to myself but I really just feel awful about myself, about my body, about my lack of social life and just thinking about going back to work makes me feel really incompetent. I know I need to change my mindset and be kinder to myself but I just can't shake feeling like this even though I have a wonderful support network who tell me otherwise. I really don't believe them. What's going on? I don't understand why I've crashed all of a sudden?

Perhaps a bit of PND, have you spoken to anyone about it ?
But we do change when we become a parent, physically and mentally, you’ll never be the person you were before and that can feel sad.
Going back to work might be a good idea as you become an independent person again, not just mum, and it’s nice to have adult company.

I can remember dreading going back to work and you know what, it was great. The DC were well looked after and I felt more like myself again and not just someone's Mum.

Agree though that if you're being that hard on yourself there may be a bit of PND going on.

Have you spoken to the PANDAS Foundation?