I saw the other week a girl the same age as me with two children passed away.
Since then I have had the most terrible anxiety attacks. I'm a mother of two also and I keep having thoughts of "what if something happens to me" as soon as I think it, I go into a melt down. I worry so much and keep bursting out crying of how I can't ever leave them alone without me.
It's even got to the point where I'm stressing at their dad for not doing things how I would, or saying things like "you need to know this, what would you do if I'm not here" and honestly even writing this is making me cry. Iv been taking more videos and pictures of the children hoping that they can look back and know how much I'm obsessed with them. It's really affecting me and my day to day life.
Not sure what I can do about it but it's terrifying.