Postpartum depression

[Shxnnxn]

I'm currently pregnant but have a 7-month-old. I wanted to know what anyone else does to relieve the depression? I'm not exactly comfortable taking tablets and don't have time for talking therapy.

I feel a failure and spend most nights awake crying. I've moved into a spare bedroom, things aren't going well in my relationship. I don't have anytime to myself as I'm the only one with baby day and night (my partner works 12 hours). I don't feel human and I'm not sure what I can do.

I only have my mother as support, but keep a lot of feelings to myself as I don't want to upset anyone. I do go for walks and take my son to the park on most days, but I'm really struggling.

Thank you

Oh @Shxnnxn you sound as though you need support urgently.

I'm not sure why you're not comfortable taking ADs. I had a difficult Medical Termination after my first DC and was in a very dark place. I took them for a few months and honestly think that they saved my life.

I also had therapy. When you say that you don't have time for it, do you mean that you don't have anyone to look after DS or you don't agree with Counselling?

Whatever you decide, it sounds as though you are ill and need help urgently. Could you call PANDAS Foundation tonight?

I'd also recommend telling your DM exactly how you feel and your DP too.

You're not a failure, you're just very, very poorly

I'm so sorry you feel like this. You're clearly a very kind and considerate person, and you're trying your very best. It isn't easy to get out each day when you feel as low as you do- which shows you are determined and have courage. You are definitely NOT a failure, you are poorly.

Please do visit your GP. I am on citalopram and it helps me so much. Not a silver bullet but it gives you that cushion so your lows aren't quite as low.

Please speak to your mum she will help you xx

Thank you for your advice it means a lot.

I did start talking therapy in February already but had to stop this due to not having any alone time. I'm always with my son and never have a chance for a chat with anyone.

Before my son, I struggled with terrible depression for over 9 years and they've trialled about 7 different antidepressants with me, which didn't seem to help, because of this I don't really have hope that they will help. I'm also afraid of the possible effects on my unborn baby.

Things have been slightly better between my husband and I, I've just stopped expressing my negative feelings to him which seems to help. It feels like as a mum you always have to be okay even when you're not, I believe my feelings negatively effect those around me and I've become quite numb towards my needs and feelings. It does really help talking to others who know how I'm feeling, I appreciate it.