My DC2 is 10 months but I feel like I'm just not coping at all. DC1 is 3 and in nursery 4 days a week, so on the face of it I have an easy ride but Every day I feel on the verge of tears and completely overwhelmed with everything I have to do. Then I'm snapping at DP or friends or parents or even DC1. I don't like myself like this but don't know how to change. I thought it might be PND but tried an SSRI and it just gave me insomnia so gave up. I am trying online CBT...
On the other hand, I wonder if Ive just taken on too much in my life since DC2 was born. My mother was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer while I was pregnant so that made the pregnancy stressful. Then since the birth life has been very busy (eg wedding on the other side of the country at 2 weeks post-partum, lots of travel for family events, house renovations). All champagne-world problems so I feel guilty saying this but I just wanted things to be quieter and simpler for a bit. But Now my mum is intent on ticking off her bucket list with exciting but I find it so upsetting and also exhausting balancing that kind of thing with the children (although she tries to help). I wonder if I need to calm my life down but can't see how I can without letting people down. so feels like medication is the only way forward....