Hormones or Pnd?

[Bumblebee412]

I'm 3 months post partum and I can't decide if I'm suffering from Pnd or not.

It's only been the last few weeks I find myself getting tearful about silly things, like sad things on TV programs or how much I love DC. The best way I can describe it is a bit like just before your periods due and how you can get a bit emotional then.

I'm wary because I had Pnd with psychosis and ptsd with my daughter and I literally don't remember the first 8 months of her life. I stopped anxiety medication when I found out I was pregnancy with dc2.

I feel a bit run down this week and I would rather stay in if I can but I don't know if that's because it's cold outside too.

I would be going to the doctors and asking for blood tests: iron, vitamin d, b12 and folic acid.
I had pnd after both DC and then Bad pmt - with similar symptoms.
The difference was that the PMT feeling went away when my period started and only returned the two weeks before my period. The PMD was constant.
I can understand your caution. Could you talk to the health visitor or your doctor?

I don't see my HV again until baby is 1 and I know you can ring them but I think I'd struggle to reach out like that.

I do think part of me is really run down this week too so everything might just be getting on top of me.

Every night I have this little ritual where I have to kiss baby tell him I love him that I will see him in the morning and to let me know if he needs me. Now this started with my daughter 8 years ago. I find that I can't fall asleep until I've said the words, 'please protect my babies'.
Luckily ds is right next to me at night and I can hear his breathing but its something that scares me so much. I know a level of anxiety is normal I just don't want to spiral.

My periods haven't returned yet but some days I feel like it could be any day from the emotions.

It feels different to last time. I'm soaking in every moment of him and I feel the love and the bond so much more obviously. I loved my daughter and I'd do everything for her but I was like a robot and disconnected but then so anxious I wouldn't sleep because I was scared she would stop breathing and I wouldn't even leave her in a room without me for the same reason.

I've never been odd anxiety tablets for this long without being pregnant and for some reason being pregnant seems to regulate my anxiety and I don't feel like I need them.