Hello,
I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl 14 weeks ago after a long fertility journey and 2 rounds of ivf. I had the usual heightened anxiety a few weeks after her birth about something bad happening or worrying I would fall asleep feeding her etc.
Being 14 weeks postpartum, I would have thought that although normal parent worries stay, that the constant awful thoughts might have lessened.
On a daily basis I will be checking she is breathing every 10 mins, I have some extremely intrusive thoughts and vivid images. I woke up a few nights ago and saw her face down, dead next to me. It was so real and distressing. I will be having conversations with people and without knowing I have zoned out to images in my head of her having a seizure infront of me. These images and becoming far too much now and are happening at least 5-10 times a day. These are just a couple of the thoughts, the list could go on.
I make sure I get out of the house daily for long walks. I attend 5 baby clases per week, eat healthily, am actively social, go to the gym. Recently have had to go up on my dosage of anti anxiety meds which haven’t yet made a difference.
I attend the gym 5x per week whilst she is with my partner and even leaving her for that hour, on my drive home I am worried I will turn up to the house with ambulances outside and not have had enough time to say goodbye if she has died.
I have an appointment this week with the peri-mental health nurse as the doctor has expressed that my thoughts are far more heightened than they should be.
I guess what I am wondering is has anyone found that speaking to the peri mental health nurse has helped if you were in this situation? Was there anything else I could do to help myself?