does this sound like postnatal depression? 😳

[justhadenoughx]

hey guys

the first two weeks after i gave birth i had the ‘baby blues’ then the third week i started to feel slightly better. from the 4th week onwards it all came back again. i am now 13 weeks postpartum so it’s been a while.

some days are better than others but overall i just know it’s not normal. i don’t know if it’s postnatal depression or if this is just what other new mums feel like?

i feel very teary and emotional. i’m breastfeeding so tend to go to my own room but i don’t dislike it. id rather stay in my room with just myself and my baby. id rather be alone that interact with people including family which are in laws im currently living with. i even don’t wana go out to see friends or do anything. i would like to sit alone with just me and my daughter. when people come over to the house i don’t have any interest in sitting with them no matter how much people want me to, i just don’t have it in me anymore. but when i do this people think i’m being lazy or rude but really it’s because i don’t have it in me anymore and i just can’t be bothered. i’ve lost interest in everything. some days i won’t even eat and i’ll just sit there but it’s like i can’t help it no matter how hard i try. it’s really hard to explain 😩 i never thought i’d feel this way as i have my whole world infront of me so how can i have this feeling of sadness? i’m just tired all the time no matter how much i rest, and it’s not because of my baby because she’s really good sleeping and feeding wise but even then im just exhausted.

i also don’t want anyone to hold my daughter as she gets passed around. i carried her for 9 months and then went through labour which was very hard for me as things didn’t go as planned and then for her to be ‘taken away’ from me for hours in the day just to be held by other people scares the life out of me. whenever someone is holding her i just wana cry until i have her back. i know this isn’t normal and i’m trying to work on this but i don’t know why i feel this way.

what does all this sound like to you? any form of depression or is this normal? X

I’m by no means an expert, I’m only speaking as someone who has experienced PND. You definitely sound like you are mentally struggling right now, and I strongly advise you to speak to your health visitor/GP. The sooner you receive help, the sooner life will seem better. If you have a partner/good friend/family member you feel you can speak to, please tell them how you are feeling. The fact you’ve acknowledged you are struggling is the first step towards getting help, and it’s also the hardest one. You should be really proud of yourself for that.
I hope you feel better soon, OP, and you start to be able to enjoy life again with your beautiful bundle of joy 💐

Definitely tell your health visitor if she still comes or your gp how you’re feeling- you know you’re not your normal self and they will be able to help you to get back to normal x I’ve had post natal depression myself, I’m not saying you have this, you feel you’ll never get back to your old self, but believe me you will. Get some help and you then can enjoy your beautiful new born even more.