Hi,
Just looking for advice and a rant basically. My DD is nearly 2 weeks old, have DS6 also. I am struggling mentally, I know feeling down is part of the postpartum process but this is ridiculous. I cant cope! I was in such an amazing headspace for the majority of my pregnany, 2 weeks before due date, one of my oldest school friends died! It hit me HARD and made the thought of giving birth whilst grieving too much to even think about. Fast forward to the birth - 9 days late so was induced - 1 week before the funeral - which was a nearly 2 hour drive away. Wondering how I'm going to pick myself up in time to be able to show up. Fast forward another 2 days and I recieve a phone call off a very frantic family member that my cousin and very best friend is in a coma with multiple injuries because of a car crash! I honestly crumbled completely at that point! Didnt think it was possible to get any worse..well on the morning of the funeral (this thursday) my DD developed a temp of 38.1 so rang 111 and was told to get straight to hosp, pure panic. She had bloods taken and lumbar puncture which found viral meningitis ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ was honestly the most awful experience ive had, seeing her tiny body go through so much at just one week old. Thankfully, she is ok and we are back at home. But my anxiety is through the roof! I keep waiting for something terrible to happen. Trying to keep myself together but with the trauma of everrything that has happened + hormones and guilt that my 6 year old son not getting enough attention, partner going back to work tomorrow. I dont know what i'm going to do. I cannot see a way out of this sad, anxious headspace I'm in. On top of that trying to let my body heal physically and keep on top of the housework. Everything is just so heavy anf hard and i'm losing the will to live. Someone help please!!!