Am I going crazy?

[emispregnant2021]

Hi everyone. Me again. I feel like I'm loosing it, my partner works as a chef- long hours he'll start work sometimes at 10/11 and won't get back until at least 11pm, we have a 4 month old baby, she is the light of both of our lives. Anyway he does try to help like he'll cook for me and do a wash and things but let's say he starts work at 2 he will sleep in until 1:30 get up go and not get back till 11 he'll then help for I don't know a couple of hours, mainly sterilising bottles or dummies. Recently I've felt so much rage and anger towards him. I'm really struggling and it's making me feel awful. I do love him, I know that but I'm so angry all the time. I feel quite depressed, I have spoken to him about the sleeping for years (this is not a new thing we've been together for 6 years) i really feel rage. I guess I'm looking for someone (anyone) to tell me it's normal and things will be ok. Im just so angry and I feel like I'm
Being a bit spoilt because im sure I get a lot more help than most.
Thanks x

Bumping for you op

Thanks x

Its hard to say as i haven't felt this but i did feel sadness and anger in ways. Its such a big responsibility and raising a child takes two. Through every nappy change, feed, change of clothes, god forbid you have a shower now and then or let your hair down. I think for me there was this idea that my partner compared the work, so his day at work meant me doing everything at home was equal. Our days dont end, theres no coffee break (sometimes a nap in a pram and a sneaky coffee happens!)

I think to talk about what you are feeling with your partner. Ask for help, maybe ask if you both can talk through together why you feel so angry?

Sleep deprivasion defonitly doesnt help, i found cosleeping (breastfed baby) helped me mentally so much and i got the sleep i needed

Hope your ok <3