4 weeks pp and feeling teary

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I'm tired as my baby needs waking for feeds more regularly and my 5 year old's behaviour has been awful over the summer. I know I can cope with my baby and when I'm alone with my baby I don't feel overwhelmed, it's more the chaos of family life and the additional guilt of not having that one to one time with my eldest anymore.

I always feel like I need a really big cry to get everything out of my system but I can't cry. Is this normal?

I'd say it is but do you have any support ? Health visitor or GP might be able to help but also help at home? Partner ?

It's so hard adjusting x

I have an 11 yr old and have also felt the guilt.....I do emphasise. You've been through a lot, body trying to recover from child birth

Hopefully now kids back at school you may find it easier ? Bit of routine x

The experience with the health visitor hasn't been that positive so far so probably not her. Do you know what kind of support the GP can give?

I have my DH around, he's still on paternity leave and helping out with our eldest, cooking and trying to keep on top of cleaning mainly. I'm breastfeeding so can't pass that off to DH just yet. My eldest sees me as default parent so any time she's in the house, she will find me and she is utterly lovely but is a little whirlwind at the moment.

Hormones, big life change, lack of sleep...let it all out! Honestly, you will find a balance and a rhythm as time goes on. I had my third a few months ago and felt like I'd been punched in the stomach then put in the washing machine! Don't be so hard on yourself and remember you just grew and birthed a human and now your body is feeding the same person your body supported.