Feeling like I've lost myself

[Emma2367]

Hi guys, so i have a beautiful 2 month old baby girl whom i love to pieces, and a partner who i love the same, he has a child from a previous relationship who he had to raise basically by himself because his partner at the time didnt help much. I however am the opposite.. i push him to do the things he loves so he doesnt get over stressed after 12hour night shifts and regular shifts in work... but ive started to notice myself getting frustrated and upset when he does go do these things... they are things we used to do together all the time before baby, and i know i shouldnt feel this way but i cant help it... im breast feeding too so i tend to not leave her for more than a few minutes at a time. I just feel like im getting jealous of him being able to do things and me not really being able to do anything. I even feel kind of embarrassed writing this because im the one telling him to go do these things and then getting upset when he goes.
Any advice or just similar situations welcome i feel like i could use a chat from someone who understands

I can sort of relate and in I'm the one with the child from a previous relationship and since having my second who is now 7wks so similar in age I can emphasise.

I think it's almost mourning the life you had before ! I'm finding things so hard now, and have had trouble adapting

I think it's just going to take some time to adapt and adjust and I think in time you will find a routine that works

It won't be this way forever and this is what I keep repeating to myself!!

We still have hormones, lack of sleep, recovering from child birth and a new way of life and it's a lot to take in

I'm here if you did want to talk - I'm not sure if that's helped but I feel a tad lost if I could describe the feeling x

It does help actually, I havent found how to cope with it yet and actually deal with the feelings i have, and i dont want to resent the fact my partner gets to do things all the time without me i dont want to slund selfish but because our baby wasn't planned (i wouldnt change her for the world) i feel like i didmt get a say in it either, thank you so much for that, i understand the feeling and im here if youd like to talk also, its nice to chat to people who understand x

@Emma2367 how are you feeling now ?