My LO is nearly 1yo. Pretty sure I had PND and PNA for many months when he was born largely related to sleep - somehow managed to get through. Around 6/7mo I found things got a lot better. He started to sleep more at night and napped longer than 30 minutes.
However for the past couple of months I have been really struggling again and feel very low and desperate most of the time. He’s started waking more at night and wakes for the day around 5am. I feel like sleep is a constant issue that I am trying to solve but can’t. He’s also a handful in the day, so energetic verging on manic and often has tantrums (which seems early?!). I’m just really struggling with motherhood. Not even sure it is PND just not cut out to be a mum.
Find everything so hard and feel like there is no end in sight. I feel terrible because I’m sure LO is just a normal baby but I find it all so challenging. I’m quick to lose my temper (when he’s pushing and hitting me when I’m trying to change his nappy and when he won’t sleep). Most of the time I just feel so so down. I have a lot of support. I’m lucky. I’m just unhappy being a mum.