Everyone says "it gets easier". We are now 13 weeks and my baby cries constantly. If she's not feeding or sleeping she's crying. I can't take her anywhere because I refuse to wrestle her into her car seat while she's screaming as I think it's unfair. She hates tummy time so I'm convinced she won't develop properly. She has reflux which took a GP visit, 2 HV visits and 2 trips to A&E to diagnose and start managing (I did tell them all she had reflux, nobody would listen). So that's under control, but she still cries non stop. I have a carrier so I can wear her, that doesn't really work. She just seems to not enjoy anything and the only way she'll stop crying is to swaddle her and hold her in my arms. I can't put her down to do anything, she only sleeps alone for any length of time during the night in her moses basket.
Add to all this that I'm convinced I have PND and PTSD following a very traumatic birth and almost losing my baby in the first couple of weeks post delivery. I've been refused any sort of help including a local postnatal psychiatry service because I "don't meet the criteria", so this is probably all going undiagnosed. Had no post natal check with my GP as my practice told me "we don't do that anymore".
When does it get easier, when does the crying stop, when will I stop feeling like the world's worst mother. I love her so so much but finding all this so hard and isolating.