I gave birth 17 weeks ago and I did struggle with baby blues at first but luckily that left me around 4 weeks. I've struggled a lot physically and it's taken me a very long time to recover from various birth injuries. I had a pretty textbook birth but I still found it extremely traumatic and I don't think I've dealt with it at all.
I've always had anxiety and this has stayed with me since having my baby. I'm used to this though and kind of have coping strategies. I've really enjoyed being a mum and looking after him and he is a very happy chilled baby.
However, the last week or so I have felt extremely down. Crying every day, feeling guilty and that I don't deserve to have my baby. Even when I look at him I feel guilty because of how I'm feeling. He shouldn't have a mum that feels like that? I feel like I can't be happy around him. It breaks my heart, I want to be a happy mum. I'm worried my mood will affect my baby. We have had 5 family bereavements in the last 7 months and I'm wondering if this has something to do with it.
I don't know what to do. I have been on medication before but I feel so guilty going on it again now I've had ds.
Someone please shed some light, did anyone else have anything similar to this or have pnd that reared it's head later on? What did you do to deal with it?