Health Anxiety (children) & Law of attraction

[Belle82]

I have had health anxiety for many years but since my little girl was born it has shifted from worrying about my health to hers. Oh and intrusive thoughts which are impossible to control.

Problem is I have now read up on the law of attraction, thoughts can control your future.

I am terrified I am manifesting all this problems with my little ones, my boy had a rare kind of Jaundice a few weeks after he was born, which after researching I thought it might be the rare one he had. Did I manifest it because I was convinced of it?

I was convinced my little girl had epilepsy and so had her tested and it came back positive (long story but it was a misdiagnosis), could I have manifested the first diagnosis.
The MRI showed two benign cysts on her brain - 2 doctors and a neurologist have all told me they are benign.
But with the health anxiety I am always on edge that maybe she has a brain tumour and I will lose her one day and I end up crying because I am so scared of that happening.
Every tummy pain, headache or pain in her legs and I go automatically to brain tumour.
The more I imagine this, the more I think I am manifesting it and may cause it from my thoughts.

I need to go on anti depressants but I’m still breastfeeding so will wait a few months ❤️

Sorry for the long OP!

I also got a fever the other day of 40degrees, I was convinced I had sepsis because of my c section scar.
Turned out I had mastitis which from what I’ve heard can cause sepsis.
I am on antibiotics so I hope it doesn’t turn nasty.

The law of attraction is bollocks, if it was true me and my children would be long dead. Sometimes what you feel you are irrationally worrying about might actually be true, because you have taken the "the signs" and interpreted the worst possible scenario. Sadly some times, the indicators really are of a terrible situation. Most times though you are over analysing and catastrophizing.

I'm so sorry about your anxiety. I had awful pre and postnatal anxiety which was focused on my DCs health. A high risk pregnancy and sick baby definitely didn't help.

Truly this manifesting thing is total and utter rubbish. You can no more manifest an illness on your child than you can manifest winning the euro millions if you put your mind to it. It makes me really angry when I hear people go on about it. It's on a par with the belief that anyone can do anything if they want it badly enough. They really can't. I would like to be a surgeon but I have shaky hands, got the lowest grades possible for maths and science at GCSE and have a shit memory. No matter how badly I may want to be a surgeon it will not happen ever.

Are you getting any help for your anxiety? Do you have any support? It really is a horrible thing to live with and robs you of any joy. But honestly you can't manifest anything because it's not actually possible.

@Featuredcreature
Thank you
I needed that funny response. 😊
I most definitely over analyse 😔

@Ghastlyghoul
I’m so sorry about your pregnancy and your little one being sick. I hope everything is ok now?

I never looked at it from that angle but you are so right.
I was the same at school so I wouldn’t have been anything I wanted to be either (barrister).

My husband who is the one who kind of started the whole manifesting idea - causing me to look into it, was the start of it. I opened up about how it’s made me feel and he has told me my thoughts had nothing to do with our little ones problems.

I have a CBT call soon with NHS counsellor, and when I finish breastfeeding I will go onto sertaline.

Thank you both so much for your responses ❤️

I’m glad you’ve talked to your DP and he has rightly said that nothing you’ve done or thought has caused anything your little one may have had. We are sold so many ridiculous concepts - manifesting being one of the latest. It seems very big with online influencers who have somehow convinced themselves they’ve manifested a Gucci bag, a dream career and a 6* world tour when what they have actually done is publicised companies on their Instagram accounts and YouTube channels and got a ton of freebies for their efforts.

I hope the CBT and sertraline help. Health anxiety is so miserable and can take up every waking thought.