Crying regularly (but not depressed?)

[JawboxGinger]

I really hope someone can help.

DS is 8 weeks old. He was born after years and years of infertility. I still can't believe he is here

I love him so much, the last 8 weeks have been tough as you'd expect the newborn stage to be but they've also been the happiest of my life. So much so that I'm distraught over this phase coming to an end.

I know I sound pathetic but this really is becoming a problem. I cry at least once a day thinking that he will soon get older and these days will be gone forever.

I know having a child grow older is a privilege and I should be happy but I never thought after all these years that I'd be in this position and the thought of it ending leaves me feeling distraught. This isn't normal

The thing is, I don't feel depressed. I'm generally very happy, get washed, get out of bed, carry out normal daily tasks etc but I can't go on feeling like this.

I've struggled with anxiety and low moods in the past and feel that maybe childbirth has set something off again? I don't know.

I'm just wondering if anyone else has ever felt this way and can offer advice on how to move on? I really need to pull myself together but don't know how.

I was pretty much the same with my first after having a termination due to medical issues. Looking back I couldn't see that I was perhaps mildly depressed as I loved him so much (still do) and, just like you, I was getting up and dressed and doing everything for him.

Looking back I think I would have benefited from some support. I'd tell your HV or GP how you're feeling abs ask for some support