Postnatal anxiety - is this normal and will it ever go away?

[shannonhinton0421]

Hoya everyone so I have a 7 month old son since he was around 4 months old I have noticed I am constantly anxious and have depressive stages, I would not say i am a depressed person it just comes and go.
I have noticed I am soooooooo overly aware of the way people look, speak, hold, touch my son. I actually feel like i am going crazy im overly aware of absolutely everything.
I over analyse every single situation, for example my partners sister didn't pick up my son 3 weeks ago when we visited, today when at the house and I knew she was going to come I was having the worst anxiety to the point I was getting shooting pains in my eye, down my neck, pins and needles, feeling sick ect... because I'm worried people are being nasty to my son. Also if there is another baby around and someon says "ohhh they have beautiful brown eyes" I will automatically think they are making an attack to my son because he has blue eyes. It's like I know no one means anything bad but it's like my head is playing tricks with me.

I WANT TO MAKE IT CLEAR - NO ONE IS NASTY TO HIM!
But it's on my head and I can't control it at all. It's like I've got 2 people in my head arguing.
I hardly leave my son but is I ever do, even if I just pop to shop and leave him with his dad I will think im going to have a car crash and die and not see him again.
My partner wants to take me a date night soon and we was going to get the train, I've cancelled our date night as if the train crashes my son has no parents. Every single thing I do this is way I think.
I have contacted my gp and am awaiting as I know I possibly need some support. I just want to know if everyone else has been like this and if I will ever overcome this contestant anxiety.
I hardly take my son to see people because I'm just get that stressed out and then I know I'm passing that stress to him.

Have you spoken to your GP already, or are you waiting for the appointment? If waiting, can you bring it forward at all?
It’s absolutely great that you recognise this is not realistic thinking, eg you know no one is being mean to your son.
But this sounds quite severe, can you self refer to any mental health support in your area? You can google this to check. Still talk to the GP though, definitely. But where I live you can self refer to an online CBT thing that may be able to give you helpful tips, and you do get support and phone calls from an actual person as well.

You can absolutely recover from anxiety. It wasn’t postnatal anxiety, but I didn’t use to be able to leave the house, and it was really hard to work through, but it’s now not a problem. I get a bit anxious in crowds sometimes, but that’s it.

@SickAndTiredAgain

Have you spoken to your GP already, or are you waiting for the appointment? If waiting, can you bring it forward at all? It’s absolutely great that you recognise this is not realistic thinking, eg you know no one is being mean to your son. But this sounds quite severe, can you self refer to any mental health support in your area? You can google this to check. Still talk to the GP though, definitely. But where I live you can self refer to an online CBT thing that may be able to give you helpful tips, and you do get support and phone calls from an actual person as well.

You can absolutely recover from anxiety. It wasn’t postnatal anxiety, but I didn’t use to be able to leave the house, and it was really hard to work through, but it’s now not a problem. I get a bit anxious in crowds sometimes, but that’s it.

It's honestly so hard I'm just in a constant battle.

Sorry to clarify, I hope spoke with my gp who refereed to a post natal clinic, I have an assessment after my talk she advised due to me having traumatic memories from my childhood it's triggering these things to set me off, although I know this is the case it isn't getting any better. I
Have a visit from a post natal health visitor on Wednesday.

One thing I'm scared about it they arnt going to think I'm stable to look after my son. This is my worst fear in this entire world.

@shannonhinton0421 same here, I have postnatal anxiety. I have been in denial about my postnatal anxiety for months to look strong but it got to a point were I was meant to visit somewhere important but anxiety told my mind not to go because of fear, I think they call it agoraphobia and social anxiety.