The past 18 months I've had several bereavements and I had hyperemesis in pregnancy which was just awful.
I had my baby 2 weeks ago and expected everything to be better once she was born but my mental health has gone to pot.
I'm obsessed over some clothes I gave away over lockdown (I did give away a lot) I mean spending 24/7 thinking about these clothes and that I've now got nothing to wear but baggy t shirts, trying to remember what I gave away and feeling so full of regret I can't eat. The hairdresser cut my hair wrong before I had the baby just a week before and I hate it, I had to have a fringe put in and it's ruined it.
I don't want to leave the house as I feel I look so awful.
I'm not eating, I feel too sick and have lost half a stone in 2 weeks. I'm crying from morning until night, I can't focus on simple conversations or remember anything that's been told to me, I can't enjoy my baby as all I'm thinking about is clothes and my fringe. I'm paranoid my dad is going to die. I feel like I've let my older son down by having another and for not giving him any attention while I was pregnant and now he's at school. I can't do the school run, can't look after the house.
I feel like I'm going to die.
My perinatal mental health team have mentioned a mother and baby unit.
Would that actually help me?